The last several days have given me a couple of kicks to the face, and every night I dream about running. It’s a bit weird, because I never loved running. I was a decent sprinter and I did a few 5ks but I hated every moment of it. I did it for my health, not …
I’ve only started establishing boundaries in the last couple years and I’ve learned that you can learn a lot about people when you set boundaries for your self-respect and well-being. You also learn a ton about people when they don’t get what they want. In future, I’m going to set boundaries sooner as a way …
Waking up disabled last October changed a lot of things, including my mindset, which has done a complete 180. I used to be all about accomplishments. Now I’m only interested in experiences. Experiencing something feels better than accomplishing something. My entire life, I was always rushing and striving to accomplish things. I had this unconscious …
I had an appointment with my family doctor just before the weekend. She’s a rural physician, and she’s amazing. I totally trust her being in charge of my healthcare. I’m undecided about MS medication, though. I had a really long talk with her about it. I really don’t want to take the medication. The more …
Another day, another call from someone at the MS clinic, another blow to my mental health. Today for the sixth time, I had to explain to someone I’ve never met that I’m broke. I’ve lost everything. I’m bankrupt. Ruined. I was below the poverty level last year (thanks Astral Harvest, hope you enjoyed your party). …
In case FunSucker is a new word for you: A FunSucker is one who, or that which, sucks the fun out of things or people. Also known as Debbie Downer or Rainer of Parades. I felt almost fully recovered. It took months, but I was able to run again. Back to working out 5 days …
I’ve made some delightful progress in the last couple of weeks! I’ve done four cycles of 72 hour mimicked-fasting since the end of April and I had another MRI yesterday. I’ll get the results at the end of this week. The question is, is my immune system still attacking and destroying my brain and spinal …
I’m not a doctor or a psychologist, I just have cPTSD and MS (I like to overachieve). Trying to cope with and recover as best I can from both, I’ve started to wonder if PTSD is more a nervous system disorder than the mental illness it’s considered. Hear me out on this… Folks who don’t …
Dear fellow privileged white folks: I can’t pretend I understand what it’s like to be a POC. I certainly don’t understand what it’s like to be a POC in the United States. But I feel pretty strongly that as a white person, who has enjoyed the privilege my light skin has afforded me… (For my …
Once upon a time, I held a deep core belief that I don’t really matter. Believing that I didn’t matter wasn’t a character flaw, it was conditioning. There were no consequences for the horrible caregivers and kids at school who bullied me on a whole other level of cruelty. In fact, it seemed to be …
