Lord jeeeeesus I hope I survive this depression phase of my life so I can fondly look back at it as my Bat Shit Crazy phase and have it be just another crappy memory. Reader Discretion Warning: This isn’t a feel good post. You might want to make make yourself a chip sandwich because I’m …
While MS isn’t contagious, it can certainly affect others around me. Whoops. Someone who watched my Instagram Story yesterday sent me a message, asking “What happened, it sounds like you beat up on a physiotherapist?” Correct, but hear me out… I am exhausted, as I might have complained about a time or six before. My …
So many splendid improvements to report! I had my 4 week assessment at Synaptic last week and I have improvements on testing. There are a bunch of other improvements that aren’t related to testing. that I’m excited to report. I jumped for the first time in over a year a few days before the assessment, …
16 days in and I’m making splendid progress at the Synaptic clinic in Calgary. I was hoping to have this update written and uploaded before the two week mark but I needed six more naps. Have I mentioned that neuro rehab is exhausting? Walking is going great. I’m already walking easier than I have in …
Hope is my least favourite feeling. People are starting to ask me if I’m excited about starting neuro rehab with the PONS device in a couple weeks. I don’t feel like explaining my complicated emotional landscape to them. I know they mean well, but I’m not going to an all-inclusive resort for a vacation. Some …
My disease and disability in not a moral failing. It’s not because I’m a bad person or I made a stupid decision like drunk driving, or I didn’t know how to be healthy. See below for evidence. I was fit, active, and healthy. Until I wasn’t. I have a disease and it’s left me disabled. …
Last year, I didn’t just lose my ability to walk unassisted, all my money, my ability to work, and my faith in people. I lost myself too, and I didn’t even realize until recently. Someone I hadn’t seen in quite awhile saw me recently with my cane. I could tell my cane upset them. When …
At the end of July, I signed up for the Ring of Kerry virtual challenge, because I’m crazy. My very existence now is a challenge, so why not add a little something extra? The virtual Ring of Kerry challenge is 124 miles (200km) either walking, running, or cycling. I can’t walk more than a mile …
The last several days have given me a couple of kicks to the face, and every night I dream about running. It’s a bit weird, because I never loved running. I was a decent sprinter and I did a few 5ks but I hated every moment of it. I did it for my health, not …
Waking up disabled last October changed a lot of things, including my mindset, which has done a complete 180. I used to be all about accomplishments. Now I’m only interested in experiences. Experiencing something feels better than accomplishing something. My entire life, I was always rushing and striving to accomplish things. I had this unconscious …
